Alicia in Ojai

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Scars

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My radiation treatment started on April 25, and tomorrow, June 8, is my last day of therapy. The first 5 weeks were every week day, full left breast and partial chest. The last few treatments have been centered on the breast surgery scar (as opposed to the lymph nodes scar) in a diameter of about 4 inches.

Strange that they took so long to start, as the surgery was on March 7, but I guess that popped stitch really did need some extra healing time. As it is, it's still partially open. And everything (especially that super-sensitive spot) is blistered, red and swollen. Yeah, the treatment itself is not painful, but the burns are cumulative, and here at the end, pretty painful. But it could be worse. And if it ever comes back, at least I can tell myself I did everything I could to prevent it.

I have to say it was pretty discouraging when the results of a British study involving 18,000 women were released last week, that said radiation doesn't make much of a difference with breast cancer, although it does with other types of cancer.

Oh well, as Bones would say, "Good God, Jim, they're barbarians"!

Please excuse all the white, waxy stuff on the video ... that's Silvadene -- a prescription antibiotic and is also effective against yeast infections. The little brown bumps are little blisters. And of course, the scars are not pretty, so please don't look unless you're not squeamish. I put this up here as other people going through the same thing might be curious (I was).Â

4 Comments:

  • At 11:17 PM, Blogger B said…

    Alicia, I barely know Markus and sadly don't you at all, but out of pure chance I happened upon this today and wanted to send you some warm wishes and congratulations that tomorrow, you can put this part of the treatment behind you. What a touching, important video.

    Next week, one of my bosses will have her second breast removed. She had been cancer free for seven years. I can never seem to find words to tell her I'm sorry, and she never seems to be looking for them. She says her body looks like a train wreck. I think you both look beautiful. For what it's worth, I voluntarily don't shave.

    Thanks for posting this. I hope you can look back on it, healthier in a few years, and feel great about sharing it.

     
  • At 2:00 PM, Blogger Alicia Coral said…

    Hey B --

    Thanks for your kind words. I went and looked at some of your posts...you are quite prolific ! Please stop by Digital Dojo whenever you're in Ventura County. I would love to get to know you better.

    Markus is quite the feminist himself ... he's the kind of man who tells me my stretch marks look like tiger stripes! Needless to say, he also believes beauty comes from the inside.

    I will let you know next time we're back east ... maybe we can meet in real life !

    -- a

     
  • At 1:57 PM, Anonymous Patricia Lange said…

    Hi Alicia,

    I'm so sorry you had to go through all of this. I hope you are feeling better and I'm glad to hear you are finished with this treatment now.

    It was so wonderful meeting you and Markus at the Digital Dojo recently. It's a fascinating place. I hope you are feeling well enough to get together some time in the near future and we can have that dinner we talked about!

    But you shouldn't have to do any work. Perhaps we can order Thai in?

    Thanks for sharing your video.

     
  • At 5:14 AM, Blogger The Faux Press said…

    My darling - how did I miss this? So sorry not to have posted to you earlier with my support here. You are incredibly brave and you know, I don't find it or you anything but beautiful. Because you ARE. :)

    Trust this finds you well.

    Re-subscribing.

     

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